.. finding my way ..
“How silly of me to forget that I am the love of my life.”
- Beatrix Potter
Today I woke up to the first rain of the year, it was filled with fresh fragrance of the earth and the trees all around. The wind was gentle as I stepped out to sneak-a-peak. It felt like a pleasant morning! Making me completely forget about the struggles I had been facing due to the long break from illustration and writing. Sometimes its just hard, no matter how hard I tred to illustrate or work, it stressed me into eating a lot of snacks which I was never proud of looking back, so I guess its okay to take a break! If not today then tomorrow, most important thing is that I enjoy creating and that’s exactly how I felt looking at the gentle rain pouring..
So I started my morning with some hot cup of chai I brew and apples but soon I found myself munching on snacks. I love myself, but sometimes it’s hard to keep up with that love when you’re trying too hard. You know?
Maybe I need more cookies.
Lately each time I try to illustrate, I feel the lack of imagination which feels harder. I read beautifully illustrated children’s books and wonder if someday my books will be on shelves of the stores being loved my many people. I wonder where life will take me.
My most recent favorite children’s book are: Millie’s Poison Garden, The Knight Owl & Little Brontes. These books are so well-written and beautiful drawn and it inspires me, and that is why I keep working..
Draw! Draw! Draw!
When it’s hard and you have the artist block - Create just about anything, the worst looking character if you cannot make the cutest, but draw. Get that notebook you wanted, that color that makes you want to paint.
When I feel too lost, I go back to gardening, painting and just watch my favorite movies. One of my most favorite is ‘Miss Potter’ a beautiful film about the author Beatrix Potter (Peter Rabbit) She inspires me the most, I like to imagine and create characters and stories., tell it a bit dramatically. It’s always fun.
Maybe Tomorrow
For the past few months, I didn’t create at all. I guess I was giving excuses, everyday was ‘Maybe Tomorrow’ and then again.. it continued each day and soon I felt further from it. And it’s been 5 months, I am finally coming around again. When life keeps putting you in many different circumstances, I guess we shouldn’t just abandon what we love, rather priorities it more.
Today as I write this, I feel a bit more at ease and ready to explore my creativity once again!
Let’s not be afraid to be lost, & take our time to get back with a clear mind! To loving ourselves better!
If you feel lost and you’re a write/author or children’s book illustrator, watch this beautiful movie called ‘Miss Potter’. It will fill your heart with warmth, wonder and hope! It’s my favorite.
